Love is the rhythm of two hearts beating
Poundin' out a message steady and true
Talk to me baby tell me what you're feelin
I know what love is
What's it to you ¢¾

longg week ... ahhh. nothing new really ... except ...

I FREACKIN' <3 IVAN !!!!

haha. yea... so for everybody who was holding their breathe ... FINALLY gah. lol <3

i love you. lol 4/21/06

so i'm really happy like ... for real. NO more fake smile !!!

this is the best weekend EVER !! ...saterday i hit the movies with the best friends a girl could ask for !! ivan<33 angela<33 && r.c<33 we watched scary movie four !!

omgg... thats my ticket !! after the movies we walked around ...

then HIT THE PHOTO BOOTHE !! (would put the pic. up put comps. being GAY)

then.. .i went shopping ...with my mom's money!! haha. i got a new purse...a new wallet && new sunglasses!

SUNDAY ... gawsh .. i freackin' love God... lets see.. church. then ate. then played SOCCER in jeans&&barefoot ..now thats love for the game ! then... driving lessons from the bro. then SPEEDZONE !!

BEST WEEKEND EVER <33

 ... HA!

one more thing... i love him &&  HUG A TREE !! ¢¾

Well, you filled up my head with so many lies.
You twisted my heart ♥ till somethin' snapped inside.
I'd like to give it one more try,
But my give-a-damn's busted.

</3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 </3 ... <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Ooh Ooh ... like on Tuesday (last week) me && julien went to the ...

SENIOR CITIZEN'S DANCE !!

... and i forgot to put up the picture, so here it is.

 ... close up lol

it was funn !!!

ROCKY'S MY NAME AND GOLFIN'S MY GAME !! ♣

It's  been a LOOOng WEEK !!

Monday ... was Opening Day !! Rangers vs. Socks

Rangers lost ... hehe. i'm not a baseball person ... sorry

Tuesday ... was the TALENT SHOW !!

then ... FINALLY

Friday ... was good. i was glad it was friday ... lol

first period .. Kirland she was in a good mood ... which was weird ..she musta got laid ...lol We read Our Town and Ivan was thinking about kissing hehehe. (wanna know?? ask.)

Soccer was fun !! ...like always!! hehe. COACH ALONZO IS AWSOME ♥

six period ... substitute ...sucked arse. as usual

seventh period... PRACTICAL .. arghhh !!! 

i had no clue ?¿? ... lol so in some of the ______.'s i was like "George Washington" "Abraham Lincoln" hahha. Myer's is going to pissed ...lol

ATTACK OF THE FROGS !!! arhhh ...

hurry up JO-JO attack it with a TWIZZLER !!! arhh hahaha.

sniff...ew. whats that smell ... eww. Mr.Myers ...sicko !!

DOINK..WHAHPPOOOSHHH ...SMASH SMASH stretch arms out !!! lol

AFTER SCHOOL ... finally !!

I was with angela and then ivan didn't have track practice, so i actually got to see him gah. and me and angela and ivan and trey hung out after school !! && and it was major fun !!

Ooh Ohh Ohh ... its SATURDAY !!

hmm .. lets see i was up all night on Friday eating pizza and talking to ivan on the phone !! PARENTS WEREN'T HOME .. woot woot !!

sOoO ... ivan woke me up at 11 or 12 ...idk still too early  to be awake though! nice to wake up to that though :D ...

I just got back from ... you guessed it !! STARBUCKS BABY ♥

they have these really cool cards at all the tables ... so i took the one that most reminded me of myself  ♥♥

 life sucked. but yall where there  ...thanks yall know who you are ^©

  charlie's a ROCKSTAR !!  hahaha.

 its for the good of MANKIND!!! ...proud TREE HUGGER !!

Thats all i have for now ... ^{i © you} 

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then
and just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what I was tryin to do.

Its hard to deal with the pain of loseing you every where I go
but I'm doing it
its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and I'm alone.
Still harder
getting up getting dressed livin with this regret but I know
if i could do it over
i would trade give away for the words that i saved in my heart that are left unspoken.

haven't updated in a while ... ALOT of shit went down ... </3

if you dont know about it ... .then you should, cause the whole damn school knows about my fcked up life. 
        well ... a picture is worth a thousand words ... and everytime i try to talk ... it turns into tears, so many mixed emotions ... this is how i feel ... </3

 if i could do it all over ... i would have never got so close. .

 ...seriously it'll tear you to pieces.
 ...  need i say more???

well ... i had a HORRIBLE week ... but FRIDAY ... oh baby FRIDAY ... i waited all week for it.

Friday was the SOCCER BANQUET !!!

i realy didn't feel like going cause of my ... depressing week, but once i got there i was glad i went. my dad drove up in the valet and this hott guy opened the door for me and i was trying to slip on my high-heels so my leg was up on the seat ... and i was wearing a dress... and yea ... emabarrasment && he was staring hard ... gah.

it brought a tear to my eye to listen to these sad songs and watch a slideshow of our memories that i'll NEVER EVER forget ... these girls are like my family. they've always been there through the good and the horrible !! i'll never forget them for as long as i live !!

and ... AFTER the banquet you have to have .... AN AFTER PARTY !!!                     i rode with krista, amy, and mellissa in krista's dad's LOVE SHACK and we had the party lights on and we were screaming our lungs out in the back seat to every song we knew the words to (which were all of em. lol) ...

Ooh Ooh Ooh ... and IVAN came !!!

there ... was ... alcohol ... enough said ... lol

  ... hahaha

i needed that party ... alot, what happened .... you'll have to find out...

I FRACKIN' LOVE YOU IVAN !! <3

and krista for watching my back at the party ... christian should be ashamed of himself !! and amy and mellissa !! hehe.

ENOUGH SAID ... for now

</3 ... it'll heal

comment ...

V-E-N-W- .... M-A ... M-A-C ... thats my name baby, dont wear it out !!

hey guys its vinni's one and only friend- Angela!! lol we r taking pics and playing 20 ?'s. its lots of fun! we were at the pool and the water was super cold. well im gonna go cause vinni needs to finish her 8 page paper. bye

~!*Angela*!~

What a shame the poor groom's bride is a whore
I chime in with a
Haven't you people ever heard of closing a goddamn door
No, it's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality

Today ...soccer game we didn't win, but i had a BLAST!

i mean wat can be better than PLAYING SOCCER IN THE RAIN !!!

what i would do without soccer ... i dont know its one of the  things that makes life worth living.

life is simple.

GOD.

SOCCER.

FRIENDS.

STARBUCKS.

MUSIC.

LOVING HIM ... <3.

there's more than meets the eye ....

<3 ...